I hope you treat the next girl that comes into your life, better than you treated me. Don’t hurt her. Don’t lie to her. Don’t cheat on her. Don’t say all of these things she wants to hear, if you don’t mean them. It’s better to be honest so she doesn’t fall fast for you and all of your lies. Don’t tell her you love her and not act like it. Don’t make promises you can’t keep. Don’t lie about where you’re at. Don’t say she’s the only one you want to be with and then sneak around with someone else. Be patient and respect her. Don’t take her for granted, because you never know if she could be the best thing that could happen to you. Don’t be scared to let your feelings out. Let her be the one that helps you when you need it, and you be the one she can always go to when she needs someone. Allow yourself to let her in and show her the real you, even the emotional side of you. Don’t do stupid things to make her jealous or upset, to see if she really cares about you. Make her feel and make her know that she is the only one you care about, and that she is the only one that makes you feel the way you do. Don’t give up so easy if you guys fight, even if she says she’s done. Keep trying, keep caring and never stop putting in effort. Tell her you love her when you’re ready. Be the one she talks about to all her friends and family. Be good to her and treat her better than you treated me. Don’t let bad things that happen to you, affect the way you treat her. Never hurt her. Just don’t, or she will become a heartbroken girl, who will never be able to look at a guy the same way ever again.
i feel so happy right now. a way i haven’t felt in a very long time. i don’t know how to explain it. it’s like a funny feeling inside of me. i don’t want this feeling to go away. i don’t want him to go away. since he came into my life, everything has been a little easier. i laugh a little more, smile a little more, and i’ve learned to let people in a little more. i don’t want to be scared and i don’t want to push him away. i feel ready to let someone in and know everything about me, good and bad. i’m ready to let myself be happy and trust again and feel things i wanna feel.
It’s hard to get close to someone, because you never know when they will just walk out of your life. It’s even worse when there is no explanation for them walking out on you, they just say they can’t and don’t want to be in your life and leave.
What hurts more is when you know that they don’t care about your feelings and leave you in the dark, but you’re still willing to try. It’s sad to think that people you used to talk to everyday and tell every thing to, aren’t apart of your life and don’t know anything that’s going on in it anymore. You don’t even know if they ever think about you or miss you; or if they do but just can’t find the courage or the words to actually try to talk to you and make it work.
Some people just care too much while others may say they do but their actions say something else, which is how people get hurt and have trust issues with other people that come into their life. They will always look back at the past, hoping that never happens again. They’ll always be scared to let people in.
I’m letting you in. I’m trying. I have to do this. I have to let myself be happy again. Yes, I’m scared because I’ve been through this and I’ve been torn apart by people who said they cared. But I know not everyone is like that. I have to give myself and give you a chance. I need to accept and allow myself to feel, allow myself to trust, allow myself to love, and just allow something good to come into my life and just happen.
I always care too much. I always care more. I always put more effort into a relationship than the other person. I always want to do anything and everything I can to make people happy. I don’t know why I do this, and sometimes I hate that I do. I hate it because it means I’m vulnerable. I’m not saying it’s not good to be vulnerable, but it’s a bit scary because I know if anything goes wrong, I’m the one who will feel more and hurt more.
Sometimes you miss someone so bad, but then you also remember all of the things they did wrong, that might’ve hurt you. It hurts to know that that one person you told everything to, is no longer that person. It hurts to know that when you need them the most, you can’t tell them you need them because they are no longer in your life. It hurts. You may still love or may still care about that person, but you know better, or at least you should know better that it’s best if you simply… move on.
They still bring you up. After a year of not being friends, you still seem to come up in conversation. Whether it’s to ask how you’re doing, where you’ve been, or to ask what happened to you… to us. It’s hard to talk about. I never know what to tell them. I usually just say that you’re doing fine or that I don’t know because we don’t talk much. Sometimes they mention your name when they see me getting close to someone else, because they don’t want things to turn out how they turned out with you.They want me to be careful. They don’t want anyone to hurt me like you did. I’m careful now. Because of you, I don’t allow myself to get too close because I’m afraid I’ll get pushed away. I don’t allow myself to put as much effort as I did with you, with anyone else.
I really hope you find what you’re looking for in life. I really do. I know things get hard at times and you may feel lost and not know what to do. That doesn’t mean push people away. That doesn’t mean shut everything and everyone out. It also doesn’t mean, take things you’re feeling, out on other people that don’t deserve it.
Don’t be scared. If you have something to say, say it. Say it before it’s too late. Even if things don’t turn out the way you want. Because later… when you’re fifty, you’re gonna look back and wish you had said and done the things you were too afraid to say and do. You don’t want to live the rest of your life not knowing, “what could have been.”
Take risks, it’s what my mom always told me. Don’t hold back because of something that happened in the past. The past is in the past. It isn’t easy to let go, but if you want to be happy, it’s what you have to do. You don’t want to feel stuck. You don’t want to feel lost. You don’t want to fall into a state of not feeling anything at all… numb.
You have to try. Try the best you possibly can and not give up just because something seems impossible. It may be hard at the time, but it’ll feel great when you accomplish all you had set your mind to do.
I hope you’re happy. I want you to be happy. Be happy with the choices you make, and if you don’t like them, then change them. Surround yourself with people who you can trust and know will be there for you. Don’t surround yourself with fake people, or you’ll become the same. Don’t try to be someone you’re not, just to fit in. Be yourself and you will find the people who really care about you and love you for who you really are.
I feel like I’m back in high school sometimes. I can feel myself getting into situations like ones I’ve been in before. You know, the ones where you feel everything is going right and it’s all fun and games, but then all of a sudden everything turns out the way you least expect it. A part of me likes this feeling, because it gives me a sort of rush, but a part of me is telling myself to give myself some space and not get to close to people so soon, so I don’t get hurt again.
I have a hard time with letting people in all the way, and accepting love that is given to me. I know people care about me. I appreciate everything people do, but I don’t want to get my hopes up and in the end, end up being the only one who still cares. Yes, I do tell people things I’ve been through, but I do it in a way where it doesn’t sound so serious, where it makes it seem like it didn’t affect my life as much as it really did.
thoughts, feelings, emotions 