i feel so happy right now. a way i haven’t felt in a very long time. i don’t know how to explain it. it’s like a funny feeling inside of me. i don’t want this feeling to go away. i don’t want him to go away. since he came into my life, everything has been a little easier. i laugh a little more, smile a little more, and i’ve learned to let people in a little more. i don’t want to be scared and i don’t want to push him away. i feel ready to let someone in and know everything about me, good and bad. i’m ready to let myself be happy and trust again and feel things i wanna feel.