Sometimes you miss someone so bad, but then you also remember all of the things they did wrong, that might’ve hurt you. It hurts to know that that one person you told everything to, is no longer that person. It hurts to know that when you need them the most, you can’t tell them you need them because they are no longer in your life. It hurts. You may still love or may still care about that person, but you know better, or at least you should know better that it’s best if you simply… move on.
It isn’t easy to move on. But you need to do what is best for you. If you keep letting that same person into your life after they have hurt you multiple times, it just tells them that they could do whatever they wanted and that you’d still forgive and forget and act like nothing ever happened, as if they had never hurt your feelings in the first place.
It’s not right. You’re letting them control you even after they are gone. That’s not the way it should be. You shouldn’t let them affect the way you are with other people that want to be a part of your life.You shouldn’t let them control your emotions. It isn’t fair to you and to others, because not everyone’s intention is to come into your life to break you. You can’t hold yourself back from being happy and letting people into your life because people have fucked you over before.
It’s also not right for that person to just pop into your life when they want and expect you to just let them in again, and when you try to talk to them, they completely ignore you. You may miss the person, the way they made you feel, or the moments, and you may hate that they make you feel or remember all of these things that you may or may not want to. But you have to think if it is really worth it to keep them in your life, try again, or just let them go and leave the past behind. It’s all about what is best for you… and for your heart.